Well, i have to tell ya'll, this week's Wholly Healing challenge was indeed a challenge.
Scheduling prayer time/quiet time with God is not easy. i've been struggling with finding balance lately. There are so many things to get done and not enough hours in the day.
But, i hear the Lord calling me to spend more time with Him. And i long for that. The truth is that there is always time for things that we believe are important. i love God and my desire is to put Him first, but i struggle. And, a lot of times it's because i know God understands the busyness and i know He'll always be there when i do need Him. The thing is, i don't care for this mindset. The desire of my heart is to make God more of a priority than anything else in the day.
Right now, my time with the Lord is at night, but i am finding that i struggle to remain clear-minded and awake after a long day. i feel lucky if i make it through my Bible readings and say a quick prayer. Sure, i can maintain my relationship with God by talking to Him often, reading a passage of scripture and saying a quick prayer, but my goal shouldn't be to just maintain my relationship with God, it should be to deepen it.
The only way to deepen my relationship is to spend intentional time with Him. This is an area of my life where i need healing and to find the right balance. The one thing i do know for sure, is that if i put God first, everything else will work out just fine. i need to obey and trust — obey the Lord's calling for a deeper relationship and trust that everything else will get done.
So, i am going to keep being diligent about finding the perfect time for me to schedule time with the Lord. i love what Lori said this week:"True communion with God comes from a relationship with Him. A relationship flourishes when time is spent together."
It may take me (and you) awhile to establish a routine that works with all the demands of life. And that's OK. The goal this week is to at least recognize the need for prayer time. The Lord understands and He wants to help all of us get to the place of spending time with Him every day.
God, thank you for being so patient with me. i put you off and many times at the bottom of my to-do list. Show me what it means to put You first. Bless my time with you and give me wisdom on how to move forward. Show me what to cut out of my life so that i can free up some time. Amen.