I thought when I started writing these posts on faith I would
be able to share lessons that I have learned with you, I didn’t think about
sharing the lessons I am learning.
Recently, I have been struggling with insecurities. The dictionary
defines insecure as
Subject to fears and
Not confident or certain;
uneasy or anxious
I define insecure as bondage. It feels like this weight on
my shoulders and this constant flip flopping in my head. I question my ability of even the thngs I know I am good at; I excessively
wondering what people think of me; and I am grabbing for reassurance in whatever
form it can come in.
Insecurity is always present but I find certain
times of life the struggle of insecurity is greater than at other times.
Three periods when I struggle most are:
- at the end of a season,
- the transition time before the new season starts,
- and at the very beginning of a season.
Those three times are most likely to insight fear in us
because uncertainty is greatest at those times. We just don’t know what is
going to happen next. God tells over and over not to fear in the Bible. One scripture
that stand out for me on this topic is Isaiah 41: 10 [amplified]
Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do
not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will
strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will
hold you and retain you with my [victorious] right hand of rightness and
In my opinion this scripture gets to the heart of my fear
based behavior which breeds insecurity…comparison. Last week I talked
about envy and it seems that when I look around at other people’s situations; at
the possibilities floating before me; and at the natural circumstances of my
life; I become terrified and dismayed.
This scripture is like God saying to me “Hey sweets, I know
you are getting scared because you don’t what is to come, but don’t forget
something very important. You are not alone. I am with you. I am here to guide
you through these times.”
I like how this scriptures seems to answer the unspoken
questions we have to God. God will you help me? “Yes, I will help you”. God
will you hold me? “Yes, I will hold you”.
I don’t have all the answers on overcoming insecurity. But for
today, as I read through the following scriptures on insecurity, I was strengthened in this one scripture. I hope you are too.
Dear Lord, Thank you for your Word that reveals your
character and love for us. I pray for those of us who struggle with insecurity
and self-doubt. Give us the strength to shift our focus off of how lacking we
are, and hone in on how able you are.