This weekend, i learned a BIG lesson on trust. Jason and i took a little vacation to rest and see some friends. On Sunday, we were invited to spend some time on a friend's boat.
i hate water. i have a fear of water that is deeper than 5'4". I don't like to fly over the ocean. And I certainly don't like being thrown into water. My happy place is two feet on land.
It's been about 10 years since i have been on a boat. A few years before that, i went on a whale-watching expedition on a high school trip — but we won't talk about how that went.
i did fine on the boat, happy and content to soak up some of the sun and watch everyone else play in the water. But Jason was begging me to get in the water. Needless to say, i declined. A bit later, the guys inflated the tube for a little tubing fun. Not one bit of intention did i have to get on that tube to be dragged behind a fast-moving boat. But it sure was fun watching Jason get tossed around.
As i was watching him, i started to think about how much i trust my husband — more than i've ever trusted anyone in my life. i trust him with my life. Being that marriage is about compromise and being brave enough or loving enough to try things that make the other person happy, i decided to get on that tube with Jason. Not particularly because i wanted to, but because i trusted Jason with my safety and i love him and want to experience new things with him.
Because i trusted Jason, and my good friend who was driving the boat, i became brave and fearless (well, almost, lol).
i had a blast. Jason locked arms with mine on that tube. And even though that boat was going a bit faster than i'd like, lol, we hit some bumpy spots, and i had a fear, Jason (and my friend) made sure that i was safe.
This experience reminded me so much of what trust is like with God. Life is full of deep waters, rough spots, fears, and fast-moving days. But when i trust God, i can be brave and fearless. i can enjoy my life. i can lock arms with a God who loves me and keeps me safe. Trusting God with every part of my life means i get to fully live my life.
Healing comes when i trust God. Even when i cannot see ahead and all i see is dark, tumultuous times, i know that God is in control. Worry and fear have no place when trust overflows in my heart.
Lord Jesus, thank you for reassuring me that i can trust you with my life. When i am afraid, timid, and paralyzed by fear, you come to my rescue.
The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. —Psalm 18:2